Longing for your love

in the middle of darkness
there's a guy who held ma hand
without a word i just look into his eyes
and tears fall down from ma eyes
in ma heart
i am wishing that ---
that moment will never end
that even w/o a word from our lips
even we just holding each others hand
and just looking in each others eyes
we are contented enough
that even in silence we still understand each others
cause our hearts speaks for us.
i fall asleep in his shoulder
knowing that he will not leave me,
but wen i woke up
i realized it's just a dream
now my dream ends
and now he is gone
no sign where he go
and why he leave me
i sat down many questions running to ma mind
and tears starting to fall from ma eyes,
asking ma self why it happened to us?
after an hour
i wiped ma tears
and decided to continue live life,
days past, weeks past, until
it became a months,
even ma life goes on
i still have the pain here in ma heart
and the big "WHY" still on ma mind
and every time i remember
i can't stop ma tears to fall from ma eyes.
i am wishing that someday
he will come back to me
and he can love me back
or even the feelings is not the same anymore
i just want to have answers to ma questions
and for me to totally move on,
because even i am breathing
i am just like a zombie
totally dead yet still living.